I went bouldering (will have to write a separate post on that subject!) yesterday before I was to sub a class at the Y. My head was in the clouds as I typed in a search for the YMCA in the town I teach in. I drove there feeling very full, mentally, spiritually, & physically satiated, a feeling that I’ve been getting a lot of lately. As it was, my mind wasn’t so much on earth as in the clouds. I may have not been paying too much attention to anything, including where I was driving.
Low & behold I had chosen the search for the Y’s office instead of the actual gym. The anxiety hit, I was in North Portland & I was going to be late! For some reason at every veerrrryyy long stop light I kept applying more & more of the essential oils I keep in my car (had to do something, right?): patchouli & lavender. I usually dab on a few drops before class, I always liked it when my teachers smelled like essential oils.
I arrived only 4 minutes late, luckily there’s a dance class in the same room prior & it always takes about 4 or so minutes for people to shuffle on out & shuffle on in.
It’s a big class, 20-30 usually & I didn’t have time (or forethought) to remind about props which added to my irritation. I just put on the mic, the music, & started rolling with it. This class is unusual for me too because they are used to being split down the middle. What is that, you ask? I instruct from the center side of the long side of the rectangular room. Yogis on one side of the rectangle face inward. Yogis on the other side face inward towards the other yogis. So, split up into two parts, each half of the room facing towards the middle.
This usually ain’t too big of a thing, but this particular weeks sequence called for many rounds of facing towards the back of the room, or in this case, backs of their mats.
Biggest issue in a nutshell: Once we made this flip, one half of the room couldn’t see me. I’ve been on that end in a class before & it sucks to be the one in the front whom everyone is watching now since they can’t see the teacher.
I was already feeling pretty flummoxed being late & seeing some wild looks towards me added to my feeling of nervousness. Thankfully I’ve experienced these types of situations before teaching, so I knew where to go. Slow down Liz. Slow down class. Everyone into childs pose. Everyone through this flip flop sequence again, this time SLOWLY. This time with a bunch of cues. This time with me switching from each side of the room, of course so they could see me.
They got it. & then I was thrown again briefly. Where’s the fun if teaching when it’s super easy, right?!?
During another childs pose resting sesh, a student popped right up, walked over to me & whispered furtively, Can you like turn the scent off?
Me: The scent?
Her: Yeah, it’s like there’s a Scentsy or something being piped into the room.
Me: It’s me.
Her in disbelief: No.
There wasn’t too much to talk about after that standstill so she went back to her mat. Remember all of those essential oils I had been washing myself in nervously during stop lights? I went on teaching, flip it on back people, flip it forward, you got it? Me too, & yes I do smell like a giant Scentsy product alright? Alright. Breathe.
Back to anxiety fueled driving, there is this length of street in Long Beach south of downtown called 4th street. Lots to do & see on 4th street, also it’s really difficult not to hit an actual person while coasting down this stretch. My room mate at the time & I started referring to it as the, ‘obstacle course.’ Did you know that in Long Beach (other places too, I’m sure, this is just the only place I’ve seen this happen) it’s perfectly acceptable to walk into oncoming traffic? Yes, yes it is. Pedestrians have the roads, the roads are owned by them. Many times I would haltingly stop in from of one to watch them meander, yes slowly walk across and if I was really lucky they would shoot me a look as if to say, what?! At which I would of course smile & nod & wait patiently for them to get out of the way.
A year into sobriety my beater car broke down & I rode the bus for a couple of months. I didn’t want a car payment but I was over the bus after those months so I broke down and made it to the Toyota dealership. I purchased 2004 Toyota Corolla with 1400 miles on it in 2009. Said car below:
Best car I have ever owned, it now has 130,000 miles on it & is still going strong. Which is great since as a yoga teacher I do A LOT of driving. Which my all my driving around the obstacle course in Long Beach really prepared me for. Now, I just have to lay off the oils.
Will post pics from H’s 3rd birthday on next post!
Hoping everyone out there in blog land is doing well. Keep rolling with it. Keep it up & things will always shift if you need them to.
Peace, love & namaste~