BURN, BABY, BURN

What a title, eh?  My new years resolution was to have a good attitude about Summer, & lately that ideal has been melted, err, I mean tested.

I pulled out of Sherwood last week, right after yoga class, & hesitated too long at a stop sign, Go bitch!  A man in the convertible car behind me yelled.  Ow, dude, I thought, you could have been nicer. 

My air conditioner broke in my car.  We’ve been having (up till a couple weeks ago) an unseasonable cool Summer.  I ever thought about waiting till next Summer to have my air conditioner fixed.  Oh, holy hell was that a BAD idea.  I noticed it was going to be in the 90’s where we were camping last week.  I called & asked my local repair shop if they could check my car same day (which, yes I know is a pretty unreasonable request).  No we are full, she replied curtly.  Ok, thanks, I replied.  She hung up without replying.

So I burned all the way there.

Which wasn’t too bad because it wasn’t very far away.  It’s all not really that bad in the long run.  It’s just how to respond to life when it gets too hot to handle.  The idea of spirituality was brought up in the women’s meeting I go to.  I feel really spiritual, I shared, very happy & full of light until I go outside my front door!  Losing patience with your loved ones, cursing at vehicles on the freeway, or chafing in 100 degree weather.  We all burn too brightly at times.

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Opal Creek.

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We camped at Fishermans Bend by Mill City.  We were at a group site adjacent to a playground, a basketball court, & a small walk to the river.  We hiked up to Opal Creek.  Hand’s down, one of the most magical places I’ve ever been to.  If you’re brave enough to take a dip in the 20 degree water you may have a spiritual experience like I did.  Ice cold water from the neck down while pine infused hot air blew in my face.  It was great.

I guess we all need some cooling off these days.  I’m ever grateful for a gratitude email I’m a part of.  I thought it was high time for a mid-Summer gratitude list here:

1.)  Opal Creek in the Summer time.

2.)  Summer pink sunsets on the Willamette River.

3.)  Getting my air conditioning fixed.

4.)  The smells of people cooking in the early evening.

5.)  Popsicles.

6.)  Summer road trips.

7.)  Staying home.

8.)  Sun-kissed skin.

9.)  My son’s smile as he splashed in the River.

10.)  S’mores.

11.)  I noticed the other day, my shorts pile has tripled!  I do not love wearing shorts, so this is saying a lot for this Winter loving lady.

So there it is.  Burning at times, but learning how to live symbiotically with it.  Praying/hoping/wishing you are all staying cool out there.

~Namaste.

 

 

 

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BACK AROUND AGAIN

Geez, the theme this Summer has been HOME.  Like where I’ve lived & where I’ve grown roots.  It started subtly in the Spring with a quick trip back to Long Beach, CA & crescendoed into my 20th high school reunion last Saturday.  Something I heard people in my class say many times?  I was so nervous about this.  Hell yeah, right?  It reassured me to hear that.  We are all vulnerable at times, & that’s okay.

We’re all in this together.

I was a wallflower in high school, scared, & timid.  I was sure no one would remember me.  I asked my cousin who still lives in the area if she would be my plus one, grateful for her familiar presence.  I remember you, some said, or hi Elisabeth!  It felt good to be remembered.  It felt good to touch base with so many people.  Where do you live?  What do you do?  How many kids do you have?  Really?  How old?  I remember chafing at such surfacey conversational stuff before, but now it doesn’t bother me.  How nice it is to be cliche & be okay with it most of the time.  The reunion itself had this crazy fun festival vibe.  Not stuffy or boring at all.  Outdoor games, a food truck, seriously decent dj’s, & it was held in a rustic bar in the old elks lodge.

Some people I went to junior high were there too, this school was located way out in the country.  People I just lost in high school, along with myself.  Remember when we kissed by the tires & then made flower necklaces together?  Some of these kids went to the high school in a different town since our grade school was in between them both.  I got to go eat breakfast with one of these the day after the reunion.  On H & I’s trip to Idaho at the beginning of July I got to eat breakfast with another who just randomly happened to live the next town over from my Aunt.  She got tears in her eyes during breakfast while H played with the jam container under the table.  Another, at the elks club bar made eye contact with me as I signed & mouthed, water to her.  I was just saying I was trying to get some water.  She had the bartender’s ear already & got some for me herself.  The soft kindness given by an old friend.

Back around again.

No pictures of Red Bluff, Los Molinos, or Dairyville, places where I grew up.  Some day I’ll have to go back & get some.  Pics below from trips to Kennewick, WA:

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Chain embedded in the ground, & yes we spend much time there while he tried to pull it out.

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Emmett, ID:

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This one actually is by Baker City.

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Gave this guy like 6 baths in 2 days time.

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My Aunt the chicken whisperer.

Lazy Bend Campground near Estacada, OR (which I highly recommend):

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No justice to how adorable this puppy is in person.

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At a local restaurant in Estacada.

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& Klamath Falls, OR:

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California.

I’m still itching at the like 20 some mosquito bites I got in Klamath.  The camp was near the water & mosquitos constantly swarmed me.  I left the rain cover off at night to be cooler & so I could see the stars.  I was paranoid then, I couldn’t shake this feeling like someone was watching me.  I also forgot my pillow.  I didn’t fall asleep till 1 or 2.  The next night, the night of the reunion my cousin & I drifted into our motel room beds at 3am.  It felt so amazingly good to get a good night’s sleep last night.

It felt so amazingly good to dance in an old elk’s club bar at 2am completely sober, too.

I’m happy for all the Summer experiences, I’m also happy for Summer itself which was my New Year’s resolution this year, to have a better attitude about Summer.  The junior high friend who got me the water & I were talking about that at the reunion.  She has to do that about Winter.  Today I read in the Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie about GRATITUDE:

It can turn a meal into a feast.

Wishing you all a spiritual feast in whatever you need most of, right now.

~Namaste.